Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Cutting The Cord... For The Second Time.

Where has time gone? I've been taking my eldest child, Emily, to visit colleges. As a parent, it is strange how we watch our children grow older as we do not.

While on a college tour, a feeling of melancholy battled immense pride. No longer would Emily hold my hand, for security and guidance, as we walked to the park or down a busy street. Those days only live in photos and memories. She is now an incredible young woman, amazingly independent, self aware and slightly stubborn (not sure where she got that from). Walking a few steps in front of me, she was dreaming of independence. Where I saw a small, confining dorm room, her eyes twinkled with the promise of freedom.

I look back, not in regret but astonishment. Welcoming her to this world; listening to her first words; helping her with her first steps; playing Candy Land; teaching her to ride her first bike. In my minds' time line, it was all just last week and now; she is graduating high school and planning her launch into a story of a new life, her life.

In a few months it will be our last summer together. Knowing I have prepared her seems a small consolation to the thought of her hours away and less frequently in my life

Writing this, I realize that the first time I cut the cord, it was a whole new chapter in my life, the next time it will be a whole new story in hers.


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